A letter to GOD

Dear Father Lord, my sister was admitted into the hospital last night and i also know that we should not only come to you when we have trouble.But lord our family needs miracle now. Father Lord please cure my sister althought i always criticize her but she is still my sister.Please take her away from all those germ and viruses especially H1N1 virus as H1N1 can be spread through human. Father Lord Please increase our immunity system and please bless us with your mercy adn guidance so that we can stay away from all these bacterias and we will be able to make a wise decision on anything that is goign to happen in future. But Father Lord the most important thing is please cure my sister and draw our whole family away from the N1N1 virus. Father Lord please listen to the prayer of your humble child.Please give peace and health to us and draw us away from what is harmful to our body and health. In your mighty name we pray .Amen.

lucky...lucky...lucky

I've just finished my friday. As a conclusion of the day, 'TODAY IS MY LUCKY DAY'. you must be wondering why today is my lucky day. Let me tell you in details.

1. Agenda: met Mr Paul
Process: i do not have to wait very long for him. Next, he's nice to me because i had what he wants. He did not scold me and make me feel tension as i really did my work. He also suggested that if i cannot continue with the current research i may change my research topic provided if i have enough supporting materials.
happy rating: 5 stars

2.agenda: received a letter
Process: the content of the letter is exactly what i wanted the most.Luckily me friend help me to get the right thing
happy rating:4 stars(because i'm still lack of one doc but it may not be important as i may chnage my research topic)

3.agenda: collected the calculator
Process: for the past few days i was worrying that i might not be able to get a calculator for my research methodology mid term. It's good to have friends from different courses because they are the one that can help me when i'm in this kind of situation. with the calculator, i can practise earlier as i know that math is not my cup of tea.
happy rating:5 stars

4. agenda:ended the meetomng early
process: the meeting last for an hour and that was what i planned because i still have to study for my mid term.
happy rating:3 stars

5.agenda: thought that i'm really a fortunate person
process: i got many things that went on very smooth today and i realize that my family and friends do care about me.
happy rating: unlimited

At this very moment, i'm on the way back to ipoh. i'm having the luxury treatment all the way.I look like i'm some businesswomen on a business trip because i'm in a very comfortable seat and happyily onlining.this is the first post that i finished in the train and i'm sure that there will be more in the future.

when will it stop?

H1N1 is getting worst. I'm wondering when will it stops. Do we have to wait until the vaccine being produced and get an injection of the vaccine then only we are immun to the virus? I feel that this is very frightening. Infected cases are increasing everyday and it seems that everyone is potential patient but i think if we are hygine then we don have to be afraid. God bless the world and may God bless you

cheated by PL

Horrible PL! she cheated me to accompany her in Jaya One until 5pm. But i end up accompanying myself from 2:30 ubtil 6pm, PL left me as soon as she sees her friends at the bus stop.If not because of her i should be in digital mall by now.......horrible PL....not going to believe her next time... :(

oh shit! not that question again

Why? Why? why i keep on listening to these kind of questions? "why are you coming back again?" "for what are you comingback again?" "wah, you are coming back again?" I admit that i have a perfect parents,but my heart hurts when i listen to these kind of questions. I wanted to know what is the intention hidden behind all these questions. Everytime when i listen to these questions, i feel sad and embarassed. Do i have to feel ashamed to go back? I'm surrounded with all these questions. Please...would you please...let me go. I want to feel happy and proud when i go back. I don't want to feel embarassed and feel like i'm a thief.
I wanted to discuss this matter with you, but you never take it seriously. Does it mean that since you are not taking this matter seriously during discussion, does it also mean that you are just joking when you are asking me all these questions? i'm confussed.i'm really confussed. I don't want to pretent in front of you. i'm graduating soon, when are we going to settle this problem? Trust me, this is the most serious and the only problem that occur in our relationship.

比上不足，比下有余

刚才突然间有了一个想法，我整天妒嫉人家有得回家，有的天天吃家里的饭，看家里的人，有家里的关怀。可是我想一想，其实我并不需要妒嫉人家因为我比上不足，比下有余。因为当我回家的同时，也有人因为家实在太遥远太贵了而必须等到大放假才能回家。他们的心会比我更妒嫉其他人,所以我应该很惜福。因为我已经拥有了全世界最伟大和最好的爱，最好的母亲。我还需要要求些什么？

SARS Vs H1N1 P.K environment

SARS (2003) H1N1(2009)
Infected: 8096 + 1706 Infected: 35928 + 5834
Death: 774 + 142 Death : 163 + 18
Malaysia: 17 cases (15th June)

From the numbers above we can see that there is a huge differences between the 2 deadly diseases. The number of those infected increased by few times.But who to be blamed for? Human? Environment? Pigs? Science Lab?Government? I would say that when things happened we don't look for anyone to blame but we should look at the source and the solutions. These are all diseases that came from the environment due to the lack of concern towards the environment,over harvest of the flora and destruction of fauna. So, basically HUMAN are the cause of everything and human are punished by the environment via virus. Look at the history of human's development, there isn't any big infection thaa ever happened in the history. AS the human still care for the envirnoment, treat the environment as their friends and they know how to recycle. As material become more and more important in the eyes of human and when money do make things easier, human started to abandoned the environment and 'treat' money as their only and dearest friend. Environment, family, human friends and flaura and fauna were used to 'bribe' their friend-money. Human sacrificed the things above so that more 'money friends' will stay in their pocket and saving accounts.
The burden of saving the environment is now on our shoulder. It's our responsibility to care about the enviroment, think of your future generation. Do you want them to lie on the sick bed everyday? Do you want them to breath in the air that were polluted by you? Do you want them to know and recognize the flaura and fauna from pictures only? Do you want them to die at a very young age? Do you still want them to see the beautiful iceberg that are in iceland? Do you yourselves wanted to have something wonderful and beatiful to remember when you die? Save them now. Save them by recycling. Save them by not burning rubbish or dried leave in the yard. Save them by telling other's the concept of clean environment.Save them by telling other's to stop doing activities that will cause global warming.
If i can care about them, why not you? If i can tell other's that human are dying because of the things that they did to the environment,why not you? I'm a person that do not take and care about other things seriously but i do seriously care about the environment, because i'm a real HUMAN. I'm a human that care about my future generation. I'm a human that want my children to have what i had. I'm a human that have feeling and i'll feel sorry for the environment. I'm a human. I'm a human that love the earth, environment, country, society and especially I LOVE MY FAMILY. What about you? I hope that you love your family too. Save them before it's too late.

Chinese Art (Part 2)

Yen Yang RM 25

Ji Xiang Gou RM 18

Xuang Xi Ling Men RM 28

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Chinese Art (Part 1)

Hey....friends...thank you for dropping by. I'm helping a friend of mine to sell the art works shown below. These are all handmade and it is originated from chinese culture which is called 'jian zhi'. The real products are more lively and interesting, you may ask for more details from me or email to my friend (sallychuah98@gmail.com). But the whole process will be faster and better if you go through me because i have some of the products with me. There are also some special privillegas for those buying more than RM 150 and the most important thing is she let me to sell these to people i know with a 10% off but it has to before 23rd June 2009. DON'T FORGET TO INTRODUCE THESE PRODUCTS TO YOUR FRIENDS AND THEY CAN ALSO GET 10% DISCOUNT. Remember that you can buy it from me or just order by sending the details to the gamail add above. Thank you.

--smooth and safe---

1st of June

The starting of final year 1st semester. I'm hoping for a wonderful start and hope that i can finish my FYP and my final year smoothly. May GOD bless the earth, the people, the flora and fauna,Malaysia, my family, my parents, my FYP, my studies, my future, my health and me.

I want to stop laughing but it was proven scientifically that laguther can reduce sickness and increase immunity system so i shall continue to laugh as much as i can and may your day be happy and cherish.

a comments after watching little nyonya)

why is there a social gap between men and women? After so many years of civilization, women are still considered as the inferior group in famliy, education, society and economically. Women choose to put family at the 1st place and be more considarable to givr the best to the children but why are they still treated badly by men?what so great about their name as men?so what if you are more capable in inheriting the family's name?men still need women in reproduction progress, boys also get a better chance compared to girls in the same family, they will be given the best resources that the family had and girls had to be tolerate and let them have the best thing while the only outcome that they can give is useless and meaningless stuft.i tell myself that i had enough of this even if i cannot change the fate of all women in the earth at least i can change my own fate, a fate that is govern by the law. i always agree with the act that western community especially women guarantee their own benefits by signing a pre marriage agreement that will govern their life after marry.

-----TITLELESS-----

I feel like killing myself (literaly). I'm feeling so damn tired and stress right now. I'm really feeling very tired and i feel like escaping to some places that only have cool wind, zero stress, bed and food (preferable buffet with cheese cake and peppermint ice-cream). I'm glad that all the subjects have 2 to 3 days break and that will somehow give me some time to study for the subsequence subject as i only manage to study LLT during my study week. I can imagine that after 2 weeks of stressful exam, it will be time for me to prepare my FYP proposal with a lot of reading and brainstorming. I think that i have a good scope of study but the literature review might not be enough, that's the time where i need to bury my eyes into books and books and books non-stop. One thing for sure that this is time where i seriuously focus on my studies and be stress throughout the whole year until i completed my FYP and graduate by passing it. From now on, i'll be in a caution and stressful state where intrinsic,extrinsic,intrgrative and instrumental motivation(sorry for being to obessed with the theories)must be here to motivate me no matter in what fucking situation.

*p/s Is anyone using celcom broadband? Is it good? How's the coverage and speed? pls leave me some comment about it...planned to change to celcom coz i won't have internet acess at my house if i don't do so....

Declaration

To my friends:
This letter is dedicated to my friends that knew what is happening between me and the other one. The battle between us has ended as i found out something that i shouldn't know. I saw what is really happening and i decided to give up and carry on with my own life. The current status between us will just be like the status that i have with you (the person reading this post). We may seem to be close in future but do remember that my feelings have ended with the declaration and posting of this post. You do not need to comfort me but you should congratulate for making such a wise decision.


* that relationship is not everything to me. but instead it's just a supplement of my life


From:
Elizabeth Tan
14-04-09
1625

i'm just a shit that deserve my place in the toilet bowl

Yesterday was just not my day as i did badly for my language teaching presentation and sociolinguistic presentation. After my language teaching presentation, i kept on asking myself maybe teaching is just not my cup of tea. I'm very enthusiastic in involving myself in education line and treat it as my lifetime career but after yesterday i suddenly thought that maybe i'm just a piece of useless shit that won't be able to do well in anything. Maybe i'm just destined to be a rubbish collector which nobody will want to do in today's world. i'm just a piece of shit that also make others feel dissapointed. I really feel very depressed yesterday and actually my tears were in my eye just that i don allow it to fall.undeniable, i'm really an useless shit that just wasting food and money.i'm useless.i can't do anything.
when i thought that the situation will be better for socio presentation, who knows actually it was the worst. I totally collapsed without any doubt. Again, my tears appear in my eyes again but it was in the middle of the presentation, i can't let my tears drop down from my eyes.Luckily, my tears listened to my desire and didn't fall down from my eyes. During these 2 years, yesterday was the 1st time i had such feeling .I hope that that will be the first and the last time this kind of feeling will never appear again.

My Rights

What are the rights that i can and wanted to claim? Below are the rights that i wanted to claim from you, you and you:

1. the right to miss my home sweet home
-do not describe me as homesick when i wanted to go back or when i sounded like i miss my
family

2. the right of being a christian
- i don't feel embarressed by being a Christian and please do not insult my religion by making
fun of it and saying things that do not have any evidence

3.the right to say 'i love you'
-i've learned to appreciate what i have and i'll choose to express my feeling so that you'll know
what i'm thinking

4.the right to have strong interpersonal skill
- i have the right to have my own self-esteem and realize what kind of person i am, please do
not laugh and tease me when i understand what i want

5.the right to choose a companion
-i'm not hot and sexy but i do have the right to choose who i want to be with so stop gossiping
behind me, if he rejects at least i tried and i knew

6.the right of being protected
- you don have the right to threat me and hurt my little soul

7.the right of being someone who is successful in life
-please do not compare me with others as everyone is special and i believe that with your
encouragement i can be someone in life

8.the right to have a clean environment
-these are all done by human, polluting, burning rubbish, causing the global warming and so on
My right has stated clearly that i demand a clean and safe environment and also away from
the society's rubbish.

9.the right to consume safe and healthy food

我 失 败 了 吗？

I keep on asking myself, have i failed as a student? have try my best to accomplish the duties that were given to me? is it a hint that show that i should quit now?have i failed my mum expectations towards me?

i'll try...i'll try to do my best....i'll try to achieve my own goal....i'll try to do everything as perfect as possible.....i'll try.....no....i must.....i must do it.......damn eli..........how can you be like this?..........wake up eli.....wake up.....you're surrounded by enemies......eli......pick up your gun and shoot your enemies till death.......ELIZABETH TAN....WAKE UP....OR YOU WILL BE SHOT BY YOUR ENEMIES.........

Am i a coward?

My friends keep asking me why do i go back so often?I asked myself so i need a reason to go back to my own home? Does it mean that if i go back on regularly basis i'm a 'coward'?someone that is not independent ? Do i really need to be homesick just to go back to my own home?I believe that i do not need any reason to go back to the place that i belong to. I don't have to be homesick to go back and have a nice weekend with my family.NO...I need NO reason to go back....I need NO comments from you....I just want to spend more time with my family....I just want to tell them that i love them......I just need them to know that you can't use money to value the love that i've been giving you.....I love you....MUM....





p/s: to my beloved mum
I know that why you keep asking me that why i'm so free when your colleague's kids are busy with their assignments and 'rarely' have the time to go back to their hometown. I have my own things to take care of here but i know how to manage my time between school and family.I don't want any gap in our relationship and i'm trying to maintain and improve our relatioship.I just love you with all my heart and i just want to spend more time with you and listening to you talking about your work and problems.I just want to share with you the experience that i had here because I LOVE YOU and i hope that you will understand and don't always ask me for the reasons of returning.I might not be able to think of any in the future.

The Perak Politic Agenda (as reported on TV)

a.The frog Jumping agenda
BN jump to PR then jump back to BN
2 PR reps jump to BN

b.BN announced that they are eligible to form a state government by the majority seats owned
BN(28) + support BN (3) VS. PR 28

c.New MB swore in

d.2 MBs occur

e.arguing about the rights of who can form state government

f.street demonstration

g.Bukit 武吉干當 area 國會議員 passed away,predicted that a by-election will be held

to be continued........may GOD bless Perak

美好的时光

美好的时光往往都是过得特别快，我刚回来不到两个小时但是我已经感觉到冷酷的感觉。在家的感觉实在太棒了，当你伤心时，有人安慰你，当你开心时，有人陪你一起笑。无时无刻都有人陪在你左右，太好了。家实在是太温暖了，家实在是太好了，家实在是不能用词语来解释的东西。无论如何，我会坚持到最后一刻。因为我只需要留在这无情的地方大约还有一年，过后我便可天天逗留在我温暖的家，天天看着我最亲爱的家人，疼爱他们，爱护他们。我可爱的家，我永远的避难所，等我吧！

新年的前夕与家

我发觉了一样东西，那就是等待新年的感觉好痛苦。为什么？我也不懂，或许因为我是一个很重视家庭观念的人，又或许我是一个贪玩的人。我老是觉得新年前或后没有家人在身边的感觉是最孤独的，至少家是永远最温暖和安全的避风港。或许你会笑我是个黏家的小孩，请笑吧！因为我的家虽然没有最华丽的装设、也没有随时候命的佣人、也没有雄伟的建筑，但是我并不介意因为当我在家时，所有的烦恼，所有的不满，所有的怨恨，所有的悲伤，所有的一切，都会离我远去。因为我的家是充满爱、关怀、欢乐、安慰的避风港。无论发生什么事情，我会永永远远支持他、守护他、珍惜他、爱戴他不让他受任何的伤害。如有一天我忘了我所说过的话，请提醒我他曾经是我最宝贵的避风港。

i'm filled with problems