shoe

finally,i found the shoe that i wanted and feel happy after buying it.Maybe some ppl are right as they said ladies will go for shopping when they are not happy and they tend to buy more stuft that they don need it.I'm unhappy but i only but things that i needed,i saw this shoe few weeks ago but they don have the size that i wanted.When i was in mid valley today i thought of buying another pair but who knows when i asked the promoter he said that size 10 is still available and i felt very happy.Luckily i went to mid valley today.

LIFE......

i'm feeling like what the sky outside my window is feeling right now.Life can so so simple yet so complicated.Life can be so short yet so long and life can also be yet so gay yet so blue.What is life?What kind of life can be considered as a good life.For some,a good life means good academic result,glamour,good pay job,good living condition.Some may say that good life equal a peaceful society, a lovely family and a stable job.If you ask me do i think that i'm having a good life now ,i will give you the below answers.

1.a lovely and caring family(having it right now and the best one...thank god)
2.a spiritual lifestyle(not really having it.....but will try to after graduated, just try to maintain
what i am now...thank god again)
3.money(just ask for enough for my daily life and my family....hate it bacause it is covering ppl's
eye and conscience....thank god i'm not one of them)
4.academic result(although not very outstanding but will still try my best to work on it.....thank
you god for accompanying all the way.....because of you i'm in pj now)
5.glamour(thought that it was very important but now realized that it isn't but will still niss the
old days where i had all the glamours....thank god for giving me a chance to
experience sth that others might not have a chance to do so)
6.friends(lovely,cute and caring friends....will try to love you and remember you 4ever.....bcoz
i know that you will help me when i'm in trouble)
7.multilingualism ability(thank you god for giving me such a good parent and background that
enable me to acquired so many different languages)

believe it or not

Do you DARE?It's flesh from the sea.....Try to guess what it is....I'm sure that you don't heve the guts to do that...Only me TAN CAI XIA has the guts to do so......hahahaha

Home

HOME
A place that full with love
A place that will always welcome you no matter what you did
A place that will always be prepared to help you
A place tha will comfort you when you feel sad
A place that will laugh with you when you are happy
A place that will never abandon you
A place that will protect you when you are bully
A place that will give you protection
A place where you are the princess

MY PROMISE
i will not leave you no matter what
i will always care for you
i will always give you the best thing that i could get
i will always be there for you when you need
i will be by your side no matter what do you look like
i will protect you like how you protect me
i will give you love more than what you gave
i will not hurt your heart
i will always put you in my mind no matter where i am

The depression

when we grow up, we tendd to forget the true meaning of living as we are started to be covered by busy life. As time passes by, we tend to lost our childhood memory and filled up our brain with glamour and dream. We don't have time to recall back what had happened when we were a kid. We started to forget that actually we are ingnoring our parent and our family. I feel guilty when my father said that I alway ignored him and only care for my father. I thought for a while actually I'm not only ignoring my father but i'm alos ignoring the things that are happening beside me, I forget that I was a haapy person before i stepped on this busy and lifeless place. A place that people will do anything just to get what they want and they will use you just to get what they want and they don't really care about your feeling.I'm waiting.I'm waiting to graduate.I'm waiting to go back to the place full of love and concern. I won't go back and stay there without a degree. I will do as i said.

life is lonely without you

i went to genting last sunday on a VIP request but actually i spent the day with myself because he doesn't have time for me.I didn't blame him because i know that he's just busy working so that i can have a better life.

So,eventually i did all the activities by myself,i took my own photos,i had luch with myself, i played games with myself,i shopped with myself. Although i had a lot of 'fun' but i suddenly realized something actually when i went to genting with you it's more fun.Although we sometime quarrel and fight, but at least there's someone there to laugh with me when i was happy and i was happy that i have you .Although i kind of played many things but i didn't enjoy myself like i used to be when you were by my side.

But i'm thankful that GOD had given me such a good siblings and thank you for being my siblings.

stupid computer

stupid computer why you sucide when i need you the most?
stupid computer why you make my life so difficult?
stupid computer do you know what i have to give up just you fix you?
stupid computer why you hurt my feeling so much?
stupid computer you make me feel like suiciding
stupid computer please don do this to me again,ok?

I'm so emo today it's because yesterday night when i was about to start my assignment, my laptop suddenly just black off .I tried fixing it but i'm not the expert what can i do.I feel super duper depressed after that as all assignment will due this friday.It's very in convinience to work without a laptop.If i take my laptop back to ipoh to repair then i will have to give up covering the sports carnival then it will makes me only have 2 news .Why?Why?Why?How dare you d this to me when i need you the most?